WILL POWER (and how do I get that?!)

Ok let me just be completely honest...

I have no willpower.

None.

I used to, but I don't know where it went.

Today was our cast party for A Midsummer Night's Dream and they had a catered BBQ dinner. Now, I know I could have watched it and eaten a piece of chicken, some green beans, veggies, and a salad.

But noooo.

I opted for the brisket, pork, mashed potatoes, macaroni & cheese, green beans, cornbread, and topped it off with a Misha's cupcake. UGHHHHH.

I kept saying to myself, "I worked out hard on Thursday and I'm doing Cycle Bar tomorrow."

NO NO NO NO. That's NOT going to get the fat off! I have to do this balanced eating thing and it sucks because food is so good down here.

Ok friends - I need prayers for WILLPOWER.

Or at least confidence to rock the body I'm in right now.

Sigh.

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